I very much enjoyed my massage. Donna is so nice, and she does Reiki too, so she threw in a bit of that. I got home and Tarzan had arrived just a few minutes before and he was in a much better mood. He read my note and thanked me for the note (he just loves getting my "letters"). He hugged me and all was well. Thank goodness that my loving Tarzan is back.
I did not POAS this morning, after what it did to me yesterday I didn't want to. I still feel very crampy and bloated like I will get my period any minute. No spotting, however I've had a few what I would call minuscule "crumbs". They are so tiny that any rational person wouldn't even notice them, but in my rather psychotic state right now, I am looking at everything on the pantiliner and tp (sorry TMI). I don't even know what to think. I don't feel pregnant - my boobs don't hurt, but the bloating and cramping is just like before AF. Did any of you feel like that before your BFPs?
I am hopefully going to dinner tonight in St. Clair with some friends from high school and our former cross country coach. It's an hour away, and the restaurant is right on the St. Clair River, so it should be very beneficial for my stress level. Work should be an easy day today as well, so I'm going to breathe deep and get through today (well I hope it will because it's 8:00 AM and I'm still in my pajamas). Tarzan still says he doesn't want me going to the funeral tomorrow, but he said all of his cousins asked about me last night. He told them I was "busy". That makes it sound like I don't care, I told him he must tell them I am sick, not busy.
Thanks ladies for talking me off the cliff - I know I'm a total freak right now, and just need to hang on a little longer.
6 comments:
You aren't a total freak. You're NORMAL. I'm glad you got some lovin' when you got back from your appointment yesterday...you need it.
I didn't get ANY pregnancy symptoms until close to 6 weeks, with the exception that around 5 weeks I started getting VERY, very tired. Prior to that, I had much of the same feelings you're having. Bloated, achy, slight pressure that felt pre-cramp like. I overanalyzed every single one.
Hang in there. I pray and pray that this is it for you.
Glad things are better now. Sounds like a great massage. Just a few more days now! Hang in there!
Hang in there, Kelly. Have a glass of SanPellegrino in a wine glass with a lime to make you feel fancy at dinner. ;-)
And I was pregnant and taking birth control to prep for the IVF for weeks and had no clue! I'm sorry this is so stressful. I'm glad T is coming around. This is his stuff too...you are in it together.
I would have totally freaked out too. That is the biggest negative of POAS early. But as much as we tell ourselves that over and over again, the temptation is just too much!
I definitely still have tons of hope though! I'm glad you decided to hold off on testing this morning! hopefully it will help you not stress so much! Just enjoy the day!
That is great you aren't really spotting yet. Good sign! And my sister told me she didn't have any symptoms for a long time either. So don't stress!
Will you test tomorrow or wait until the beta Sunday?
Still praying!!!!!
Honestly I felt pretty much the same for the BFPs and the BFN. I think we get so drugged up on hormones you can't tell at all, just have to wait for the test.
I think out of date tests would not be at all reliable, and probably would be less able to detect a small amount of HcG. You should definately NOT test using those again, but if you must test get a new one! You are worth it, girl!
I'm still holding on to hope, i didn't get a positive HPT until my period was 7 days late and after 3 negatives, so just hand in there a little bit longer.
Ha bitch all you want it's your blog!
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