After our walk, we showered, ate lunch and then went for a drive. We ended up at Canterbury Village where we had taken pictures on our wedding day, and sat on a bench in the shade and just chilled for an hour. We wandered into a few shops and then drove some more. He showed me a neighborhood where he almost bought a house before he decided on the house we now live in. We went thru the McDonalds drive thru and I got an Iced Mocha - yum! We laughed, we cuddled, we made jokes about what we can spend our money on if we don't have kids. We interspersed a few questions/vents about the DE cycle, but the best thing was that we reconnected. The physical sick feeling stayed with me through most of the day, but it finally subsided about an hour ago. I'm sure it has to do with my loving Tarzan being back and out of the man cave, and maybe the caffeine.
Eurydice is right - my Tarzan is very conservative and I'm sure he lived his life without taking a lot of risks (other than driving fast in his sports car). However he has grown a lot in the 5 years that I've known him and he is willing to take more risks now - heck him doing IVF 3 times is something he couldn't have imagined years ago. He also knows that age is just a number and that young women have infertility too. He's met several over the past few years. He hasn't brought up the concern about my age since way before we were married, that was just me and my fears speaking yesterday when he was withdrawing into himself.
Dr. Miller didn't call me today which surprises me greatly, but I'll be sending him an email tonight, so I'm sure he'll either respond via email or call tomorrow. We are working on our list of questions and will be scheduling our WTF meeting. I am going to request that both Dr. Wolf and Dr. Miller are at the appointment - we'll see if they comply.
3 comments:
I'm happy you two are back to one. Thinking of you both.
Sorry you are going through this, and so much harder when T is needing his cave and you need to be held. I know exactly what you mean, the cave at our place has been getting a lot of overtime use! So glad you two reconnected today, sounds like a lovely day.
I wonder if your donor had decent eggs. It reminds me of my first cycle where the donor tested out great but produced poorly, we ended up with only one embie (although we did transfer on day 5) and no frozens. We have no issues with sperm. The clinic said they would not use that girl again, and she would probably have trouble with IF herself (poor thing). Hope you get good answers and actual reasons at your WTF meeting. It helped me a lot to hear what the docs had to say. Good luck, thinking of you. (((HUGS)))
I'm glad you are reconnecting! This is so stressful on a relationship and when it doesn't work, it's so easy to look for someone to blame. Rememeber, that God does have a plan for you guys and while you may not understand it yet, he usually knows what he's doing :-) My thoughts are with you!
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