Monday, January 21, 2008
Trying to be chipper
Hubby and I talked on Friday night and even though he talked to the doctor and now fully understands the success rates of the various procedures, he still does not want to proceed to a medicated IUI nor IVF. He wants me to do an unmedicated IUI, so that's what I have to do. I'm so exhausted after nearly two weeks of anger, tears and wanting to punch him, that I'm just letting him have his way this next cycle. If it doesn't work, then I'm moving onto a medicated cycle....I'd like to say with or without him, but I guess it wouldn't work without him. It doesn't matter what anyone says to him, he thinks he is right, and talking to him is like talking to a brick wall. I don't have the energy to be angry anymore (although that could all change tomorrow). I'm sad and I'm finding it difficult to smile today, but I know it's only one month. If it works, it will be a miracle and he'll remind me that he was right for the rest of our lives. I was nice to him yesterday and he said "it's nice to have my wife back".....and I smiled, even though I was thinking - oh she's not back, I'm just a good faker!
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Faking it is usually reserved to something else, but if it comes in the form of a smile, can't be that bad. Your frustrations are frustrating me! I really feel for you, but you're right to give him this month...it is his process too, right? Maybe I'm just trying to justify his stubborn ways...I do that sometimes. Hang in there and maybe it will work!
Well, at least you are still getting the IUI are part. And if you did get pregnant this cycle, he will be right for the rest of your life, but you'll have a baby so who cares :) Good luck,
I'm so sorry this has been so difficult. I think it's okay to give him one month, even if he doesn't get it, but after that, he needs to get with it.
I'll be thinking about you and sending lots of strength and serenity your way.
I'm sorry.
Sometimes you gotta fake it till you make it.
I hope that he's right...though you'll never hear the end of it.
Good luck!
Sorry for your man, being, well, a man. I don't get it.
Thanks for your support and well wishes this cycle.
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