Both hubby and I got home Friday night. I cried and he held me and told me he loved me no matter what. We spent the weekend working on the yard, going for walks, grocery shopping, went to church, and giving each other a lot of hugs and kisses. We didn't do much talking about next steps or make any decisions. I showed him the matrix I had created with the options of 1) donor eggs. 2) adoption and 3) remain child free. I listed the pros, cons, and my conclusion of each option. I explained it to him and he just listened. Our follow up appt. is on May 7th with Dr. M. I doubt we will do much talking before then. I know my husband, and right now he needs to process and to think. When he is ready to talk next steps, he'll let me know.
In the meantime I am/will be enjoying lots of wine, cake, hot showers/baths, running, yoga, and ice cream! I don't know if I'll have much to blog about in the near future, but don't distress, I'll be back!
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Hi- I just found your blog. I'm so sorry about your failed cycle. It is so hard, particularly when you have invested so much.
But, I think you are doing all of the right things - remembering that you have options, enjoying the things that you wouldn't otherwise be able to and just enjoying your hubby. Being able to do that is a gift.
Best of luck on your follow up appointment!
Take all the time you need, I'll be checking often and am always here to listen when you do want to talk! And definitely enjoy the ice cream, I had some this weekend also!
I'll be thinking of you and keeping you in my prayers. Enjoy this time to focus on other, more fun pursuits...like wine, running and hot baths.
xo
Honey, I am so, so sorry. You really are taking this so bravely, even if you don't know it, I am in awe of your spunk.
I will pray that you get some answers and next steps on the 7th.
Honey, I am so, so sorry. You really are taking this so bravely, even if you don't know it, I am in awe of your spunk.
I will pray that you get some answers and next steps on the 7th.
Thinking of you during this time of hot baths and wine...I wear out that pro-con list in times of deep thought--I hope it will help you all reach your next steps..when you are ready.
I'll be checking in on you...if not for baby making updates, then maybe for some new recipes???
Hope you're taking some time for the to of you, and the next step is an obvious one.
I hope you two come to some answers that can make you both happy and help your family to grow.
Your post the other day about your realization that you will be able to love a child that you are not genetically connected to was really touching. I even told S (my hubby) about it.
I'll be thinking of you in the meantime!
Keep us updated nonetheless, even if it's just about your newly debauched lifestyle :)
You are very special and it sounds like your husband is just as sweet. I have all fingers crossed for the two of you.
I'm so glad that you and your hubby were able to love and take good care of each other. I think the matrix you made is a really great idea.
I hope you and hubby come to a decision that makes you both happy.
Just know that I'm thinking of you!
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