Keeping hope alive!

After a very restless night of sleep, I woke up today deciding to be very hopeful. So hopeful in fact that I'm going to talk about the "real" names I have picked out for my future children; Gabriela for a girl (not sure if her name will have one L or 2), and Carlo for a boy. I've had those names in my head for almost a year now and so far I haven't gotten sick of them. My husband is Italian, I'm a Spanish wannabe (after having lived in Madrid, Spain for more than 3 years), so the names just seem perfect. My American relatives would be able to pronounce both of them and yet they are both Latin and would sound good with our last name. Agosti by the way is only half of our last name.....it's much longer than that, but I figured I should try to be somewhat secretive on the web and not give out too much information to any psychos out there.

The hope I am feeling today is a very long-term hope. I don't know which way this particular IVF cycle will turn out, but I do know that someday I will be a mother. If it's not in the cards this time, well we'll figure out how to try again. I will hopefully have new insurance in January so we won't have to pay it all out of pocket. I know the doctor may bring up the use of donor eggs, but my husband is not open to that yet, nor to adoption. However I know eventually he may have to be. The goal is parenthood in my mind. So Gabriela and Carlo....someday you will be here, and in the meantime I am waiting patiently and hope-fully!