My SIL had her baby yesterday; a girl. This is the wife of Tarzan's younger brother. I'll admit that I was hoping she'd have a boy. Forgive me, but her little 2 year old guy is such fun. Now he'll be sandwiched between 2 girls. Her name is Corinne, pronounced like Coryn with the accent on "yn". It's a beautiful name - it's a bit different and uncommon compared to their other 2 kids' names (Caitlyn and Aiden). Yeah they didn't go for the Italian first names like we plan to if we ever get the chance. However her middle name is Antonia, so maybe in a way that is after my Tarzan? How sweet.
I am not going to go visit her at the hospital. I'm sure she's overwhelmed by visits from my in-laws, my other SIL, and honestly I just don't have it in me to go coo over a baby when I can't have one. Sorry, I know I'm showing the worst part of me. I do have a little gift, but I'll probably just mail it.
UPDATED: Looks like Tarzan wants us to go visit this weekend when he is home. I'm sure I'll melt when I see her and hopefully my bitterness will fade.
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I totally don't think there's any "worst part of you"! It's absolutely understandable that you can't face visiting newborn babies in hospital.
I hope the weekend visit is ok....
Thinking of you xx
ps: thanks for your comments. It's nice to know i've friends out there. I haven't shared what's going on with me with anyone in my local life.
Kelly, I know how it feels to not like a your feelings. Take care of yourself. I wish I could help with the hurt.
Been there, done that, and it was so much fun the previous times, I'm doing it all over again.
Your feelings are normal, but you already know that. I'm sorry. I'll be thinking of you this weekend.
Hugs!
i got the blog invite today for hte weight loss group, thank you very much, seems fun!!
I'm sure this is hard for you. I have a few people who haven't come to see Nick yet because they are still trying for a baby, but they post comments on his pictures on facebook, so i'm not sure why they can't come to my house, oh well.
I know how very hard this is, and please don't feel bad for feeling like this. So completely understandable! I hope that the visit goes well this weekend, and I'm sure you'll just melt.
Good luck with your visit K! I just got another first baby pregnancy announcement today from a friend married a good 3-4 years after me. As much as I have going on that is exciting it still stings....
So I completely understand!
Hugs!
Just hope that the baby is fussy the whole time you're there so that you're NOT envious, but maybe even relieved by the time you leave...ha ha!
Hugs!
;)
I get it. OH BOY DO I GET IT!!!! No need to feel that this is the worst part of you..it's normal. I always kind of chuckle to myself when my sisters complain about their lack of sleep!!!!
Good thoughts your way!!!!!!
No need to feel guilty about your feelings...and if you decide to opt out of the visit, Tarzan should understand that too! I went to see my niece in the hospital just days after having a miscarriage and it was one of the hardest things I've ever done. I wish I would've done the right thing for me and stayed home :-) Whatever you do, I hope you have a great weekend with Tarzan! Hugs!
Oh hon, you can't help the way you feel! It is terribly unfair, and you are right that you will probably melt with love but there is always going to be that bittersweet edge. Hopefully you will soon have a sweet teeny italian of your own to coo about. Thinking of you.
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